beginning to see the real W

[Dr LOve]

Journaling…..
Sorry for the tease…Ok I’m not really... but anyway I have been planning on givin ya all an update for a while but was waiting for my finals to be over... Today was my last one….Aced one class (but it was only a pass no pass class so no grade points my career changing / self esteem class I got an A and I know I at least got a B in my DOS (computer language class)
My R is really good... I would almost say great but still no FULL intimacy contact yet but………..She is really interested in my classes and I think almost envious of me. AND today for the first time in two years she said “I love you” to me… Ok I kind of tricked her but here is the scoop. I think we are at that “dating stage” where you want to say I love you but are kind of afraid. (Not me that is I tell her it all of the time) but anyway … one of my classes about self esteem has these card with phrases on them. You are supposed to read them and say something about them. But what these card so is show that we all have “Scotoma’s” now usually a Scotoma refers to a blind spot in our eye’s. But here it is used as just something that we do not see that is right in front of us.
Ever drive down the same road over and over again and then one day you see a nice house or windmill that you never saw before? And if was there all of this time but you never noticed it? Well you had a Scotoma… it was there all the time but you never saw it..
Anyway I have brought some of these cards home for wife to look at. Well this morning before I left for school. I wrote on a 3X5 card. I drew an eye and a heart and the letter U on it. So on my way out I stopped by her office and said… I got another card form school. I asked her if she could read it out loud... So she read it and said “I love you” I quickly said. “I love you too” and gave her a goodbye kiss. She laughed and said “you stinker”...
I have been having plenty of contact (touching) with her. This is also something I have learned in class. What we believe to be the truth is not always the truth. I thought she did not want me to touch her (what I thought was the truth) but what I have learned is we really don’t know if what we believe is true. AND we will not find out until we let whatever happens take its course.
So there it is... my update. I am not ecstatic about my R but I am very happy about myself. What I am doing... and where I am going.
BTW I bought wife a necklace with an opal stone in it. Picked it out right away. (. remember it took me almost the whole month to pick out our last wedding anniversary present?) I was going to give it to her before we left for her sister’s house on mother’s day but things got too busy. I gave it to her there in front of everyone and she said it was beautiful and walked across the room and gave me a kiss and hug. She then asked if it was from both of us (son and I) and the little bugger said ya so she gave him a hug too…
As for that sweet young thing that followed me to class one day? Well she moved to the seat right next to me in one of my classes. She was really friendly. BUT that class is over this Friday and I don’t think I have another class with her in it. I think she had a boyfriend anyway….


Almost forgot... Yoyo and Sara…e-mail me some of your friend’s names that are on Farmville that will be willing to let me add them as neighbors... I LOVE THAT GAME but want more neighbors

Doc