pnb, deb, bill, and zoo - thanks for the virtual HIGH FIVES!!!! (by the way deb, i will NEVER forget the date, but the point i was making is that there are no anxious feelings about it this time, first time since the bomb dropped that this month there will be no discussion with hubby about anything cause i went bonkers)
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POSITIVES
1) hubby came home late from work last night, had a rough day in parts, and especically concerned about a letter he recieved and so was ranting about that - i just listened and validated and then he stopped in his tracks and said "i am so sorry, i am talking all about MY day, i didn't even ask you about YOUR day" - it brought a smile and i told him a bit, but then told him i was more anxious to hear how he was going to resolve the letter thing...
2) so while he was gone yesterday he received another order on his new biz, so after i felt he was done with his little rant, i said "but do you know what is really exciting?" - he said, yeah, your losing more weight! that just took me by surprise, and i went over to hug him and gave him a kiss on the neck! i said THANK YOU that was SO SWEET! then i told him about his order!
3) he didn't LOCK HIMSELF in his room last night, he wanted to watch tv with me, wow, no movie (which is usually what he will sit down to watch) - just regular old channel surfing!!!
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tomorrow is the big day, 6 months. one of my closest pals (a long time married woman about 20 years older than me) told me when all of this happened to give myself 6 months to see if anything happens positive before i made the decision if i wanted to leave him. i am so glad i listened.
i really have no idea what the future holds for me, but living one day at a time is getting easier and easier.
