Nice to know you're still lying to me when it suits you. Reaffirms my decision every time. - Gardener's X
She's saying things based on what she wants them to be, instead of what they are. She's still trying to continually convince herself that what she did was right...regardless of how wrong it was. She lies to herself in order to assuage her own guilt.
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.