If you're not being sarcastic, that means a lot coming from you. I wish I would have listened months ago.
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Thank, but I am running out of patience. I will work on our M if she will. So far, she hasn't. It's been long enough. Something has to happen, one way or the other, quickly. If she would put forth any effort at all, I could remain patient.
BTW, I don't know if it means anything or not, but this morning she left a note on the counter that read: S4 goes to my mom's today. Tonight, I have the sports banquet at school. I have to be there at 6:15. I will call you and let you know where the kids will be so you know where to pick them up. Unless you want to come tonight.
Seems a little soon for her to want to include me in something. Not reading too much into it, it just seemed interesting.
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
It was a pleasure to read what you wrote. You sounded like a CEO negotiating a business contract. "Here's my offer. Take it or leave it. Gotta go, I have other business to attend to."
Loved it.
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I keep expecting to feel that twinge of fear or that feeling in the pit of my stomach that I have lived with for soooo long. It hasn't came yet. Hopefully it won't. I am done being scared of what will happen when what has been happening sucks beyond all measure. It's past time for it to stop.
I don't know if I can save my M. I do know, finally, that I can save myself. I refused to see that this is really all about becoming a better person. I was so wrapped up in my fears of losing my W. I should have been a quicker study and things might have worked out differently. I know it's not over yet, but I am okay either way.
For the first time I can honestly say that and mean it. I am okay, fine, good, great either way.
Originally Posted By: Coach Quote: Unless you want to come tonight.
Go, it's a request. Keep your mojo on.
I agree...go tonight.
I am going. She txtd me to ask if I was. I said, sure I will go. She said, okay, it starts at 7:00, will meet you there. I'm sure I will bring the kids home while she stays and helps clean up probably has a few beers. I don't care! I am glad for all the time I have with my kids. I never see it as a burden. I will go and be charming and not have a care in the world. For the first time in a long time, it won't be an act.
I did go to the banquet and had a good time. W sat up front by the podium with other coaches to hand out awards. I took a lot of pictures of our kids and of her. Mingled with other parents, board members and teachers. I got a lot of comments about the two younger kids who were with me and how good of a dad I was to "help" out so much.
W had a new outfit on and I told her how good she looked. She also, for the first time in months, has her engagement ring on. I noticed it right away but didn't say a word about it. That, in and of itself, doesn't mean a thing.
I took all the kids home and she, of course, txtd me around 9:30, going for a beer. She was home before 10:30, which is early for her. She came in and talked to me in the living room for a while about the night. Pretty relaxed, nothing deep or important. She asked what I was doing tonight, said I had nothing planned. She said she was asked to be a chaperone for the school dance. I simply said, okay. Of course, our kids are not old enough to go to the dance, so they won't be involved. I'm sure I know who at least one of the other chaperones will be. I don't care. We talked for a few more minutes and she said she was going to bed. I watched TV for a while and fell asleep on the couch. I am not worried about sleeping in my, our, bed. I simply didn't mind because it was very cool in the living room and I was tired and comfortable. I slept great.
School's out next week. That should be enough time for her to decide what she wants. If she hasn't, I have made it clear that I will take action to protect myself and kids.
