Hope you're on the mends and feelin' better today.
Quote: things are still in limbo, but where would i be if i wasn't doing this and living here? that keeps me here, cause the alternative is not acceptable
I like the way holdingon put and I very much agree ... you are a bit on the other side of limbo. I know you feel uncertain about it but for re-enforcement, reread you the postives of your last couple of posts.
In there you'll see that your H is putting a galant effort into trying to make each day better than the last. He's DBing his butt off! ... and you're doing exactly what you should be for now ... letting go of the rope, let him run with it and catch him when he is doing it right.
Am I correct in taking what you mean about being in limbo is in reference to how you feel within? That you feel apprehensive that the positives will continue to come? That your H will not keep with the momentum he has created & how far is he going to run with it? These are common doubts to have and (aww ... here we go again and I hate to say it) its gonna be as time passes that you begin to sense that with the rewards that come about from each day's baby steps, the momentum will carry on working at making each day better.
... and you're doing exactly what you should be for now ... letting go of the rope, let him run with it and catch him when he is doing it right.