holdingon - gosh, you may be right with it being a little bit better than limbo, i have to remember to focus on the actually things that are happening
karen - thank you for stopping by my thread and for the kudos, they are always welcomed.
t2 - gosh girl, i sense a shift in you, at peace and it gives me so much comfort to see this. you are so strong and have put up with SO MUCH and now, you are experiencing this piece - thank you for seeing the positives in my sitch - thank you for being you
deb - i know you are dealing with some pretty horrific stuff as of the last two days, and i feel horrible that i haven't been around to help you thru this, but you have a BOARD full of people with good advice. right now, all i can offer you is HUGS {{{{{ }}}}}
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POSITIVES
1) hubby called about 6 times yesterday
2) i made cookies for the family and hubby really really enjoyed them. this is a total 180 for me, i don't bake well but i have been trying lately to always have homemade cookies around for him and the kids - my next thing is a sour cream pound cake, his favorite and it's his mom's recipe
3) i have back problems again and was basically in bed all morning after taking the boys to school. he got up and checked on me (was laying with daughter to watch tv so as not to disturb him) and then he actually came to ME to give me a hug when he left for work
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we are still very much financially drained. he had a pretty decent day yesterday but after two weeks of hardly any work this barely catches us up.
there is tension in the house, he seems to want to keep to his studio, not interacting even with the kids. i am giving him his space, just periodically asking him if he needs anything and then basically just leaving him alone.
after part of our conversation just before i left a few weeks ago he came out with he felt like such a failure. i hate that he feels this way and have been giving him "words of affirmation" to let him know that i am ok - i have told him, i have a home and i have food to eat, what more do i need? that seems to help, but i don't think it's good enough
is there anything you folks can think of that might be able to bring his spirits up? you folks are always chalked full of ideas and i just want him to know that he is NOT a failure whatsoever
