it is very difficult to be around her in the state I'm in. We live in the same house and still sleep in the same bed! I am finding it hard to not slip back into my pursuing ways. I feel like if she really knew what I'm learning and how I am changing she would see that I am making big changes to better myself and our R. I feel like after years of hurting she has chosen to love me less to protect herself and now that she got over the hurdle of making that decision, she doesn't want to loose the confidence and independence she gained by doing so. I don't want her to be less confident at all. If anything her newfound self esteem would do wonders for our R. If she would just open up alittle I think she would seethat we could be great again.
