i don't get it. if he's the one who's not sure if he's ready for fatherhood, why didn't he just say it? why did he have to say that i wasn't ready or that he didn't think i could handle it? if he wasn't sure of himself, he should have said it was him and not pin it on me.

i don't sit around thinking hmm .. did he mean this or that? i take whatever he says at face value. don't play mind games with me. this isn't high school.

i forgot to mention .. if co-dependents are really in tune with people's feelings, then why did he not get it when i told him that his words about my ability to handle motherhood, hurt me? i didn't circle around the issue. i flat out said that it hurt me.

there will be more details coming. i just know it because you guys are gaining my trust.

GG