wow! what does a gal have to do to stay on page one these days????

had a wonderful conversation with t2, deb, and cathy during the day today. i tell you, fellow db'rs are da best!!!

do you ever notice that when you off helping other people you actually get insight on your own sitch? well, it happened to me today. i am so glad for this board

alaskangal - thanks darlin, you sure have been a lifesaver - your posts to others during the last few days have been more than profound. i especially enjoyed the 12 step db program - awesome stuff

shiny - no, in fact, i am allergic to cats. there is a chance my hubby might know about this board so i am just protecting my interests! LOL - thanks for stopping by

pam - hello there sunshine, sounds like things are getting way better for you!!! congrats on the progress!!!

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just wanted to share with the board, that i am officially on ad's - paxil - i have been on them for 12 days and already i am feeling much better.

for the first time in almost 5 years starting 4 nights ago i am getting a full night's sleep. my usual nights for the past 5 years has been fall asleep around 9 - 10 - get up at around 1 and not be able to go back to sleep until maybe 5, and then i have to get up at 6:30 for the boys to go to school

it's also working on my detaching ability, it's actually functioning as a "i don't care" attitude, which let me tell you is a whole lot better than what i had been having

i am thoroughly pleased with the progress. this is the first time i have used anything to control stress. i grew up with a mom who said "you don't have TIME or the LUXURY to be depressed, snap out of it" - so i have bucked taking drugs for a long time

now i wonder what took me so long to get on this

kitti - who is feeling good and fine

POSITIVES

1) hubby called about 7 times today

2) i got TWO hugs today when he left

3) gave him loads of "words of affirmation" today, cause i am slowly figuring out this is his LL - i wrote him an email last night and he talked about it last night before i went to sleep (i wrote him commending him on the latest cd he has put together telling him that i really felt he was exposing his soul on this one) - he was very pleased to say the least that i enjoyed it and took the time to let him know