Agreed- sadly I decided to drink a bit last night- haven't done it in years and it didn't quite take.
I read a passage for the day from "The Language of Letting Go"
I won't quote it but it speaks of property lines- what's yours (actions, bx, thoughts, feelings, beliefs, etc) and what's mine...your property is not mine and mine is not yours...it should not affect me what another person does or chooses.
I get it now. I have had my ups and downs. I have allowed myself to be brought nothing but pain by maintaining any R w/ W. And I'm sure I've caused her the same as a result.
I can't "make" W get honest about things- and I can't question her when she says her "truth" is she no longer L's me or wants to be M.
Our 6 yr. R was never this way- it was actually very peaceful.
I am the cause of the problems in this "R" right now- there is no R-
When W came back and admitted everything, I was not ready for it- I was still clinging to the idea of "W"...
Anyway- I don't even want to relive this anymore- the more I talk about the sitch the closer I get to it.
