Im still confused alittle about the outcome of GAL and how that may be interpreted as me giving up on the R. If I normally was distant and that got me in this sitch, then will continuing to be distant do more damage? I know I'm doing other things to try and be a better version of myself but if I'm never around how will that work?
I went to a dinner party last night and was out late. Nothing innaproriate happened but I couldn't help felling lime I was doing something wrong having fun while my W stayed home alone. That's my codependency rearing it's ugly head isn't it?
I know I did alot to hurt our R but she wants to leave and I don't want her to. What good will staying home and being misrable?
