Just found out she already filed

[ImprovedRomeo]

Geronimo, I do find a lot of similarities between your stich and mine. In fact, I can't stop thinking about what you said a few days ago in your thread that how you had to adjust to taking care of things alone that you weren't used to. You did them as a challenge and felt proud when you accomplished them but now it's your life (for now)...I've felt that way before and I think about it every now and then. I look at the empty night stand on STBX's side of the bed and it just hurts like hell...in the begining it was 'so what? I can do this...' but now I know that spot will remain empty for a long time. It's just a sucky feeling.

Wii, I know it'll make for a good war story years down the road but right now it does feel like a waste of time and how difficult these times have been. How I've been in pain emotionally. I'm tired of feeling helpless and being the victim, I'm tired of feeling sad, I'm tired of keeping that hope alive that isn't. I deserve happiness, I deserve someone that will appreciate me for who I am, I deserve to have a home (not a house). I have a lot to offer and if my STBX won't see it that way then it's too bad. As FM said somewhere "you don't have to be like an italian wife and wear black for a year". Well at least that's how I feel today.