You are re-directing anger toward your H/sitch to people here. I know I said before anger was bad, but maybe you can use it to your advantage. Your H dumped you, his handicapped wife of xx years. Alrighty,then-- SHOW THAT B*STARD you don't need him, that you will be just fine without him! Amaze your son! Be the heroine of your own story! Be the inspiration for a Lifetime movie! Get help for your mood swings first so that you can do these things and more. Use your flair for the dramatic for something good.