Rys....

Obviously, none of what anyone is saying is getting through....

IF....you are taking AD's sporadically, you will have brain buzzes that will cause you to act irrationally...

Is that the case ?

You are offending a lot of great people, who are going to quit trying to help you.

IF you are having this much trouble mentally, then you need to seek professional help.

Nobody here is bashing you to make you feel bad.

Most here, see your '07 register date and wonder how you have been able to function for almost three years.

I have one question for you, that I need an answer to....

WHO DO YOU WANT POSTING TO YOU ???


Who resonates through you and actually "gets through" to you ?

As painful as this is for you, there is nothing, and I mean nothing, that you are going through that hasn't been navigated by anyone here.

Yet, you continually minimize their experience by spiraling in your own web of misery.

Your well being is what is important to us, and it is painful to read where you are.

You have to want that help first, and I don't see you wanting it.

I read you quite comfortable in your quest to be miserable.

You have to want to heal and become whole.

You have to want to take charge of you before you can accomplish anything close to that.

Good luck Rys....

I hope you find you soon...