A good exchange this a.m. I got to do "something" positive in that H had to take a shower for work, and I was still in the shower, and I came out naked and didn't bother to cover up. I normally would not have let him see me that way, but heck--I'm down almost? 20 pounds??
I also touched his arm as he left and told him to have a great day.
He left me with a couple of things to do, but not in a stern or mean way.
The progress is slow--I have to stop myself when I think of how little really is happening here. It's very, very depressing. I see that some people are "progecting in their mind" a positive relationship--I have tried it--what would my H be doing? I can't, even in my imagination, see him being loving to me or caring about me.
He hasn't attempted in almost 4 months to touch me. Not once.
I think I am feeling sad when I SHOULD be feeling angry. I need to do something and anger helps me at least DECIDE what to DO!
