VT, I agree with Sandi, become as dark as possible. I did reach a point in my sitch where I didn't really care about W, I didn't really think I wanted W anymore, I wasn't hopeful that we would ever try to work it out and I don't even know if their was any faith left. That is about the time that W made her move back to me. Try to work through your own issues, GAL, and bury yourself in work or a hobby to get through this difficult time.