fib,
There are no words...
I admire your dignity and strength.
And I identify with
Originally Posted By: faithisbelieving
However, I have a house to sell. I stay with the sinking ship. The rental is $2100 per month without utilities. It will probably cost close to 3K per month. I will now be alone, in a 4 BR house on a 1/2 acre of land, without kids running around. The silence will be deafening.
Get out of the house as much as possible, mark it and make it your own as much as possible, blast your music and invite others over as often as possible.
Make one room, one section a sanctuary. Put your favorite, most comfortable, soothing, fond, things there. I have. It is sacred. It helps me cope...and heal.
Take good care of yourself.
Peace,

Gardener

"My soul, be satisfied with flowers,
With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them
In the one garden you may call your own."
Cyrano deBergerac