I'm still taking it second by second, but I'm getting better everyday.
Tell you this, go thru something like it and you're not afraid of anything.
When I first got on here someone said I'd develop think skin, that is no joke, only thing haven't been called is JC.
I've just been reading your posts and living life.
Been riding the heck out of my cycle until the police figured out didn't have a license. It was an alluding type of thing, but man it was fun:)I earned they're respect went from going to jail to having Dr Peppers in the drive way.
Me and D are still off base, but you know I'm not pushing it.Saw her for 10 min's on her 15th bday, it was tough but made it thru.
I've gotten really good at poker I've been in 30 tournaments now and only twice not made the final table.I don't care about the money, it's just nice being a nobody.
I've built a relationship with the author of "Bring it On" and also Shepardess from the other forum that Old Pilot had suggested.
Great books out there and yes guys I've forwarded them to my wife.ONLY AS SUGGESTIONS!!!!
Wife actually texted me a TYou last wk, I sent her the Ozzy autobiography and a cple times texted her when his new song has come on and she texts back.
I'm still kept in the dark on a lot of stuff, but when I find out from kids new stuff she's done, text her she should be proud of herself.
I did, don't kill me, but I did ask her on a date:)I knew the response I would get, but you know what, she hasn't suffered one consequence and she knows she's got me wrapped and cutting her off would be a tactic.I have fun with the insults every now and then and compliment her on any new ones.
I have a neighbor that is mlc affair and all,it's funny she's listening to me and she'll look over my shoulder when I read the threads and the guilt that comes over her. Man. The deal is she knows she killed her husband, she knows she's lost everything, but the OM is like heroin to her.The heroin was a quote!
We listen to self help cd's together and I just listen and pass on things to her ex, but hey she did stop the divorce and I asked them both to just enjoy limbo.He could so have her back and I told him, she said if he would do only 2 things and her husband won't listen to me.
ONE WAS IF HE WOULD THRIVE VS PLAYING THE VICTIM and take care of himself.She doesn't want to be with him like he is all down and needy.I loaned him DR DB,I'm like this little mlc club on this divorce block and they all know what i want and I should give everyone on the block a library card, have everything from Men are from Mars to how to forgive loaned out.
So I can help others and not my family frustrating.Even was contacted by a University in town about going back to school, I challenged a psychiatrist to the debate of MLC and all I've done is pass on what I've seen here or learned anyway the shrink was impressed and the school called me.
I declined, I am a novice and have nothing like Snodderly, Jack, Old Pilot has to offer, remember I'm a salesperson so if I find something that I like, I make it mine.Too many people try to reinvent the wheel.
Her divorce isn't final so yeah I'm making a push, it's not going to do anything now I realize, but at least if her heart softens she'll have something to help her.
We all know the what, we just don't know the how or the why.
Slowly focusing on myself, but still more on her almost a yr later, not what she's doing or not done, jsut the dang it I miss her and want to get to know the person she's becoming.
Work moved me to a new store I don't have much authority like before, but it's more what I can do for this struggling store and I kick the mngr out everynow and then and make him take his wife to dinner.
Wouldn't wish this hell on anyone and just doing my best to pass it on.
Went to a concert mothers day and wife found out I had scalped her ticket, D had texted me and said hey mom didn't know, she would've gone, that was my date, so I texted them both, hey ur not here but ur are in my heart and hey I just high fived Rob Zombie while your sitting ont he couch:)
