You are ignoring everything everyone is telling you. You do not even ackowledge what people are saying. As for legas separation we do not have them in Canada either however, you can get a separation agreement in place. AGain talk to a lawyer.
Speaking of rejoice ministries. Don't they tell you NOT to spy? Pray when you are feeling down? Yes read restored marriages and learn that they left their husbands to God and worked on their own issues and raised their children.