I am telling you this so you can understand that you are not the only one going through this. Don't you get it. Everyone has a heart breaking story many worse than yours. You are allowed to have a pity party once in awhile but you need to stop it and them move on. You have to. Your h is on a long journey, This could take many years. You are not invited on his journey. Are you going to spend the whole time reading his search history and wondering what he is doing with OW? You only have one life to live. YOU have the be the sane parent for your son. He needs you. Your h cannot be there.
