I had a good day I didn't call h or drive by his house. The psychologist seemed ok, I can't really tell yet if there will be a connection. Im going again next week. Maybe if I think of h as an addiction that I have to stay away from, and change my own life. I think this will help me. I have to put him out of my mind. One day at a time. Let go, and let God.
Maybe if I think of h as an addiction that I have to stay away from, and change my own life. I think this will help me. I have to put him out of my mind. One day at a time. Let go, and let God.
That is an AWESOME way of looking at it Rys,
Keep it up. : )
Experience is a brutal teacher, but you learn. My God, do you learn. - C.S. Lewis
Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B. - Jack3Beans
Listen without defending; Speak without offending - FaithinAK
Thanks for all of your suggestions. It is so true I have to save myself before I can maybe save my m. It is not what I would choose to do, but it is the only way to true happiness by getting my own life. Ive been depending on h for happiness for 32 yrs so it will take alot of courage, but I have to do it for me and my son. Son had a better attitude today maybe because Im happier, and he's off from school tomorrow and fri. This morning I drove him to school and he had his hands folded on his lap and I could tell he was content, it made me happy. He is a very smart, artistic, sensitive teenager. his grades have gone down some and I'm concerned about that. But I think if my attitude changes and I stay on top of his school work it will improve. I was thinking about going on a weekend trip to MA to look at MIT, I think that would give him the incentive to work harder in school. The next 2 yrs are really important for him. No jerk is going to steal away my son's future.
i am really upset I know I shouldnt have looked but if you go to your google map account on home page then shopping on top a list of history stuff came up and there was wedding invitations, bed wetting alarm. picnic basket. I think I have to file for d he is definately very involved with someone else. I am back where i started very very upset.
i am really upset I know I shouldnt have looked but if you go to your google map account on home page then shopping on top a list of history stuff came up and there was wedding invitations, bed wetting alarm. picnic basket. I think I have to file for d he is definately very involved with someone else. I am back where i started very very upset.
Wait!! I don't think that's a history, rysmom. I think that is a suggestion page. check out what came up on mine...
A few of the items recently found with Google Product Search: saxon math makeup mirror spotting scope recliner golf balls massage chair graphing calculator shoji lamp beer glasses air conditioner wall safe lava lamp ashtray cell phone case gripmaster waffle iron delonghi toaster bathroom rug gsm phone pumpkin seeds television stands key chain gas grills dave matthews balsamic vinegar
It's a sales tactic only. Take a deep breath.
(and excuse the spacing, I'm doing a quick cut & paste)
formerly known as "shelbel" Me 40, stbxh 40 DSs 9, 7 & 3 M9, T10 Stbxh is a diagnosed bipolar & an addict. The end.
I don't even know what a "shoji lamp" is! And the only person who would have been shopping on mine is me--I know for a fact I didn't look any of those up.
You were making progress, don't wig out over this. It's not worth it.
The Google list is not worth getting a D over.
formerly known as "shelbel" Me 40, stbxh 40 DSs 9, 7 & 3 M9, T10 Stbxh is a diagnosed bipolar & an addict. The end.
