I just can't take it anymore

[james217]

James,
I've not posted to you before, but have followed your sitch.

YOU MUST listen to CG above about the diabetes, I don't know what's up, if you have received a definitive diagnosis....BUT you have got to take care of you and stop the attention seeking behavior trying to draw your wife into doing it. IT ISNT WORKING.
IF you have diabetes, this is a matter of life and death. I have a 15 year old son diagnosed with Type 1 five years ago...CG is right....NO ONE, I repeat no one, goes in and out of insulin reactions/hyperglycemia without assistance and is ok. It seems odd that you would be having an insulin reaction (low blood sugar) since you are not on insulin UNLESS you are drinking a lot/binge drinking (alcohol lowers blood sugar and it can be to a potentially deadly level). certain types of tumors can also cause low blood sugar, but that seems unlikely, as again it wouldnt resolve on it's own. IF your blood sugar is so high as to be causing the effects, you would not come out of it from drinking water and not eating.

Dude, you need to get yourself to medical care NOW. NOW.
call 911 and go to an emergency room. This is not the time to worry about finances. THIS IS A MEDICAL EMERGENCY....DO NOT FOOL AROUND with diabetic reactions.

If you need a resource for outpatient care, there are safety net clinics across the country to provide care at fees based on ability to pay. I don't know where you live to find the info for you but you can find a resource here: http://findahealthcenter.hrsa.gov/

I am not a medical professional, but I've had to go toe to toe and nose to nose with diabetic emergencies more times than i wish to recall.

I repeat. If you are losing conciousness, this is a MEDICAL EMERGENCY. GO TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM. quit fooling around waiting on your wife and talking to "friends" and DO IT.

it's usually too high. highest I think it has been is maybe 543? When I was in the hospital on april 19th it was 296. It's rarely rarely low.

But I have been fasting and not eating so I don't know. I eat maybe once a day most of the time. I don't drink. Never have been much of a drinker.

thank you for the diabetic website. I'm reading it now.

Also I've had a stomach virus or something and couldn't hold anything down at all. Not water not anything. I think due to me overdosing (but even before then) I don't know anymore.

I just know I'm tired. frustrated and I feel like quitting. I don't think I have the strength or fight anymore to want to have to battle ANOTHER DISABILITY.

I really honestly sincerely truly hate my life.

Even if I would not have been thinking about cancelling counseling today, she was sick and I could not see her anywaz.

I've already been in the hospital. I was passed out for about an hour and a half and unconscious and they just gave me an i.v. ran some tests on my brain told me my blood sugar was 296 and then sent me home.

I'm trying to get insurance and I'm also trying to get my other stuff taken care of but i'm very TICKED OFF

I honestly don't want to do this anymore.

I don't see how C.G. and Serenity cope. i've have gotten so damn broken burnt out and i'm not motivated. This is not like me. I never used to want to just rol over but what am I fighting for?

Another day of pain misery suffering hurting and disabilities and dealing with it all alone?

The people here are so kind and great. I mean it. I wish I had friends like you guys IRL.

I just don't know if I want to do this crap anymore.