I just can't take it anymore

[james217]

James, I think you need to start focusing on some practical issues. When is your appt. to get a firm diagnosis on diabetes? If you think you are diabetic then why not go to the drugstore (I know for a fact Walgreens has them) and purchase an at home glucose monitor so you can track things several times a day?

My FIL is diabetic, he has been since the age of 20 and he never just "passes out" and is fine after. When will you see the dr. to find out what is going on with your blood sugar? What date? What time? What arrangements have you made for transportation?

I am not sure what the point of talking to a mutual friend was. Involving friends, especially mutual ones as "allies" rarely works in your favor. Your W is not who she used to be and she might never be that person again. Yes, it hurts but right now that is what you have to work with.

Until you accept that focusing on your W will not help there is really not much anybody can say that will help you get on a better path.

You are getting amazing support here.

There is no date set. I just consistently get the run around. I've pretty much almost given up on getting any of this stuff fixed.

My blood sugar is usually very high. it's been over 300. it doesn't even have to be that high for me to get sick. 250 plus and I'm in trouble.

So then I get sick. Half the time I don't even know I'm acting that way. This is all so new to me. Oh I know I have diabetes. I had a physical and the doctor told me.

When I was in the hospital april 19th I was told the same thing.

Most of the time when I pass out I'm not fine. My feet and hands still tingle I still feel dizzy and have headaches. I havent felt "fine" for about a year but nobody could tell me what was wrong.

I knew about the eye condition but not this. I'm just waiting and trying to take care of business.

I'm totally overwhelmed by all of this. even thinking about trying to fix this stuff drains the life out of me because I've spent so much time trying to fix it and I feel like i'm getting nowhere.

I'm very very tired.

Ill get the kit. But still no meds to control it. I am terrified of needles. I cannot stand them or the sight of blood. It's something i'm going to get used to I guess.

If I have to have insulin and take the shot I don't know how I'll deal with it.

I'm trypanophobic? I think that's the word.