hey shelbel, sending some virtual hugs your way. those days of crying and being down in the dumps are the worst and i can imagine you're feeling a whole lotta mixed emotions. don't beat yourself up about it cause we're all human! maybe not our spouses, though, since they seem to be aliens right now.
it does get better as so many people attest to. we're here to support you and listen.
if you don't mind one piece of small unsolicited advice...really heed the advice of no R talks...they really are flame to the fire. if you want to care for your hubby, don't talk about the R cause it takes him to a bad place. if you want to care for yourself (which you should!), then don't talk R, cause it just puts you in the pits and that sucks for you. so it's a win-win. i know...easier said than done...but possible!
