Thanks for all of your suggestions. It is so true I have to save myself before I can maybe save my m. It is not what I would choose to do, but it is the only way to true happiness by getting my own life. Ive been depending on h for happiness for 32 yrs so it will take alot of courage, but I have to do it for me and my son. Son had a better attitude today maybe because Im happier, and he's off from school tomorrow and fri. This morning I drove him to school and he had his hands folded on his lap and I could tell he was content, it made me happy. He is a very smart, artistic, sensitive teenager. his grades have gone down some and I'm concerned about that. But I think if my attitude changes and I stay on top of his school work it will improve. I was thinking about going on a weekend trip to MA to look at MIT, I think that would give him the incentive to work harder in school. The next 2 yrs are really important for him. No jerk is going to steal away my son's future.
