I think when you said "to feel I'm desirable to some women" was exactly my point. And, you didn't date anyone for 1.5 years because you were working to win your M back, there's a difference between then and now. Friendly dating when you're vulnerable can have a real nasty habit of becoming something else, that you aren't ready for, real fast. So, I say you build your own self esteem for now become the man you want to be so that when you're asking someone out it's not to validate yourself but because you truly want to know that person. That's my 2 cents.
