I just think he needs some reminders of the life he left. He doesn't have any pictures with him.....of us, or the kids. He has nothing of our life of 33 years together. Which, of course makes it so much easier for him to stay in denial of his feelings. I'm sure that's why he doesn't want to see me or hear my voice......because he has a guilty conscience!! And, I confess there is a part of me that wants to see him and talk to him all the more because I don't think he should get off scott free. I don't think it's fair that he gets to hide in his own little world and ignore/deny the fact that he abandoned me. I guess I am in one of those moods where I want to strike out at him and cause him some pain.
Venting right?
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The only problem with that is that now I've read too much about MLC. Now, I've learned so much and received so much wisdom from others that I know that's the wrong thing to do! Sometimes I just want to be the one who stomps her feet and throws a temper tantrum instead of having to be the adult. But, that won't get me anywhere, so I'll continue to plug along, even if it's at a slow pace.
Very good on you CK.
Very good on you.
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