I just know (from experience) that unless he is clean, nothing will ever work. Not for him, not for us. I don't want to be right, I REALLY don't want to be right. I just want to make sure I have all the pieces of the puzzle. And right now my gut is telling me he's not being honest. Unless there is real proof, I can only trust him.
You are correct that things won’t be right if he is using. For any of you involved…
However, there are groups out there that can help you not be an enabler (since you really can’t force him to stop)…Alanon is a wonderful auxillary of AA, and it is for the family…
Your plans for you are good…
I had to laugh when I read you describe yourself, the sewing and such…
Could have been me typing that…Those were my hobbies…Parts of me that I had kept…
There is so much more now, that I don’t even have time for those things some day anymore…
Don’t let fear stop you from trying new things…
And your personal assessment of yourself, could have been a description of me as well…
While now I can be mistaken for a ten foot tall cat some days, most days, I am simply resemble a sweet little kitten…
People can change…
Everyone on these boards is living proof of that…
You will be too…
"Acceptance doesn't mean resignation. It means understanding that something is what it is and there's got to be a way through it."--Michael J. Fox
