James, I think you need to start focusing on some practical issues. When is your appt. to get a firm diagnosis on diabetes? If you think you are diabetic then why not go to the drugstore (I know for a fact Walgreens has them) and purchase an at home glucose monitor so you can track things several times a day?
My FIL is diabetic, he has been since the age of 20 and he never just "passes out" and is fine after. When will you see the dr. to find out what is going on with your blood sugar? What date? What time? What arrangements have you made for transportation?
I am not sure what the point of talking to a mutual friend was. Involving friends, especially mutual ones as "allies" rarely works in your favor. Your W is not who she used to be and she might never be that person again. Yes, it hurts but right now that is what you have to work with.
Until you accept that focusing on your W will not help there is really not much anybody can say that will help you get on a better path.
