I am starting to take care of myself better. My new IC got me on a program to start exercising. I told her I have zero motivation when I"m depressed so we planned for me to call some friends an d set up hiking times. Got out this morning with a friend! I wanted to back to bed, but now I"m up!
Also have been trying to get a job now for many months. NOt happening. Have an idea for starting my own business. I'm scared, but I promise myself today to start working toward the goal!
I also stayed dim monday night when H was here - stayed in my room. First I messed up by asking if he wanted to watch a movie and he said no he had to work, then I noticed all night he was watching tv anyhow. Usually that would hurt me and I would probably go in and watch with him anyhow, but I remained distant in my own room instead.
Somehow this is progress, although it feel like accepting doom!
