She Say's She Want's Out Of The Marriage

[tbart01]

Someone please stop me if you think I'm not thinking clearly.

Yes, my W and I have been getting along well since I've been home, but I'm very angry, frustrated and confused. I leave the house every morning the last few days wanting to pummel something because of these feelings.

We've had productive MC and talks, but sometimes we stop the talk because she's tired and wants to resume later. Sometimes later never comes or it's way later. She has expressed her desire to not D, but I don't know if it's the concept she doesn't want or if it's because she still wants to be with me.

It's obviously been very hard living under the same roof during this process because I still want her, but it appears she doesn't want me. She keeps telling me she hasn't had time to think about or process us. I've been home for 4 weeks, 3 of which she was at her friends. You think she would have thought about us during that time, but I guess we're not a priority.

She keeps telling me that she has a full plate. I was thinking of letting her go to lessen that full plate. I was going to tell her I'm going to move out (for now) so I can get a life and detach from her ( I cant do it living with her).

After that time we can split the bills and she can move and see what life on her own is really like. I really need to be on my own for a few weeks to clear my mind. I just can't keep doing this to myself.

I feel like I'm complicating matters for her by hanging on to something that just isn't there.

Is this just frustration talking or am I on to something that I really need?