I think this is my home for the next 6 months...

[beingreal]

Thank you, M&H. It's almost like being in boot camp again. LBS/MLC Boot Camp. (That might make a good sticky--the best of the "Snap out of it!" posts.)

I don't know if he will remember. He was so angry at me that he had a hard time remembering them at the end of the coversation when he said he would do three of the four--if nothing more than to prove me wrong. He even asked what I'd do when everyone determined there was nothing wrong with him. I told him, "...then I guess I have a helluva lot more of my crap to work on then, don't I?"

I don't plan on bringing it up again. He's asked me to leave him alone, so I'm going to. I was calling every night at 7pm so the kids could talk to him before bed. I would dial the phone, hand it to one of them, and go into a different room. I didn't want him to think that I was doing it so I could have some access to him. It was all about the kids. I only talked to him if he asked to speak to me, and that wasn't often.

So for now I've gone dark.

I really do just want to fix me. I don't ever want to go through this again.