Talked to my IC yesterday. She thinks giving her a heartfelt letter just as I depart for my 3 week trip is a good idea. Also thinks that a visit to an MC before I go would be intelligent, if nothing more than to clear the air.
W is distant. I know she is communicating with OM, which drives me crazy. W is all over the map, and has told me and others she is backing off the OM, but everyone here tells me to never believe someone in an EA. The fact that we all work together is very bad.
I keep vacillating between letting my anger take hold and blow this whole thing off, and realizing that W is in a very bad place, and that I should be there for her as her depressive tumble continues. My brain tells me to bolt, my heart tells me to hold on. This is so all consuming, I can barely take it any more.
H 51, W 46 no kids T 22 years M 17 years ILBNILWY 2/10 1st D talk 6/10 partial recovery W files D 5/11 long distance separation 8/11 moving forward on D 10/11 legal separation complete 1/2012