feel like giving up - pt 2

[alice444]

Hey Luv- I've been quiet, but following along...

I was regretting giving him one. He is so nasty towards me why do I care to be nice to him? He has ignored every text and almost every email so what is wrong with me? [quote]

People have asked me this too, though I don't have nearly the A$$ you have (sorry). As long as we don't go too far over the line of being so nice that we're a doormat, the reason we do things like this is b/c we will be able to look back and say- with our heads held high: *I* was not an A$$. *I* was a decent, respectful person, even if my H was not. I kept my integrity and did it without letting him walk all over me- or losing my cool. Your kids will remember this, and so will you, Luv.
[quote]
I actually am feeling ok today. I don't have that awful sad feeling so I'm good. I've gotten a lot accomplished today. I feel tired...a little weak/worn out so I'm gonna chill for the rest of the evening. I will watch some tv with my babies...I just love those guys.

I'm glad you had a little window of relief yesterday and were able to get stuff done and enjoy your kids! I hope you have more and more of those days.

Did your L get you protectd money-wise for the short term so H can't be dic*ing around with your $??

-Alice

[luvless]

ST - well he is not sad enough...he came in here and removed his things with no reservations...he hasn't spent time with our kids in months! he hasn't seen them in THREE weeks...what kind of parent does that? oh yeah...the walk away kind!

LSG - gotta keep rolling...btw I love that song (limp bizkit)

alice - the L has not protected me financially....yet. I'm hearing the same story for almost two weeks now...trying not to go to court and settle. I don't know what is really happening..if it's HIS atty or mine. I will be getting a call today for sure so we will see.

I've had a couple exhausting days. I guess I just need some rest time. I'm looking forward to this weekend. I am taking my D to a concert in Vegas (planned two mos ago) so it's a much needed escape for the both of us. I haven't seen true happiness on her face in a long time. She is so devastated about her dad

I see the thread hits and I appreciate those who are following along even though you don't post. Thank you everyone.

Luv

[idontunderstand]

Always following along.

Always admiring you courage and perseverance!

(((LUV)))

[Gardener]

luv,
Enjoy your weekend!
Relax. Rest.
Put some big smiles on D's face.

the L has not protected me financially....yet.

Perhaps you should speak to other Ls (or put your foot down on this one).
(((liv)))

[luvless]

Thanks Gard - hard to relax when the dreaded attorney call is at any moment ya know? I just got off a call and he wants me to agree to a temporary order of support which I think is low. Mr. Luv told my older son he closed the american express account today - bad move that is not good for his credit but not my problem anymore huh? He should have called me I would have advised him otherwise.

He gave our older son the sad story that he doesn't have the money to pay it. My son told him, "well dad that is what divorce does." Older son told him dad we have no money to go to the market and stbxH said, "I'll try and get you some money."

I'm thinking about talking to another L for a second opinion. I wonder though because the numbers are pretty strict here in CA. They go by a schedule and they don't really waiver much.

I'm pissed about all of this...such a waste. We should be planning for our daughter's graduation and 18th birthday but we are planning a Divorce! ick! to the tenth power!

luvLESS

[Gardener]

luv,

He gave our older son the sad story that he doesn't have the money to pay it.

Sad. "Victim Dad"

My son told him, "well dad that is what divorce does."

Tell-it-like-it-is Son.

I'm thinking about talking to another L for a second opinion. I wonder though because the numbers are pretty strict here in CA. They go by a schedule and they don't really waiver much.

Whaddaya got to lose?

I'm pissed about all of this...such a waste. We should be planning for our daughter's graduation and 18th birthday but we are planning a Divorce! ick! to the tenth power!

I hear ya. I'm sorry.
Stay as strong as you are and have been.

[luvless]

I got a preliminary support order from the opposing side (insert grossed out face here) the numbers are sad. I am not going to sign it. My L thinks I should and reminds me it's temporary but seriously...I don't want to think this is ok with me so no signature from me.

I can't wait to hear what my L is gonna say to me..he's probably gonna be upset with me but oh well. This is my future we're talking about and I'm not settling unless I have to.

I almost lost it there for a minute. I had to calm down and pull myself together. I didn't think I could feel such rage. To think I felt sorry for this loser of a father and a husband. I gave him a $1200 tv and a mac computer. I should have made him fight for it like he is making me fight for every stupid dollar. It's embarrassing!

God help me and forgive me for the hateful feelings I'm experiencing right now. Pray for me guys. I knew I couldn't feel ok for too long...somewhere he had to sucker punch me when I wasn't looking.

[Bridgestone]

Sometimes God calms the storm, & lets the child rage.. sometimes He calms the child & lets the storm rage.

I pray for you inner peace no matter the circumstance.

I know you can handle this.

Peace
Bridge

[Gardener]

here, luv.
Good song.
Verses not important.
But the chorus is from me to you.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=FAlWxZK-ps4

[luvless]

good morning...or is it?

Thanks Gard - I definately need to breathe because I feel suffocated!

I'm just in a pissed off mood. I'm really trying here. Mind...I want you to know I think of you and I pull it together.

Luv is so frustrated..