Huge backslide on Mothers day that put me in a deep depression. I won't go into all the details, same sh$% as always.

I need help letting go!!!! Everything I do or say, I wonder what he is going to think. I can't do that anymore, I need the strength to move on with my life and that scares me.

Because of the backslide he says he is filing the D papers this week. My therapist said that is probably a good thing, because my H has been holding those over my head.


Together 16 years
Married 12 years
Me 36
H 34
D9 & S6
Separated 12/3/09
Confirmed A 1/25/10
Exposed A 1/26/10
H hired L, but not filed yet 1/27/10