The mediation appt tomorrow is mandatory along with the co-parenting education session. The language used in it is very firm. The appt can't be canceled without both parties agreement and it's just too late to change now.
Having said that the way I understand it, it simply makes official our current custody arrangement- which is 50/50 and I'm OK with that. I can always say that I can't sign anything without discussing it with my attorney if things don't turn out as expected. I'm not sweating this one...
The next court date is the more important one towards the end of this month. It's the actual hearing of the temporary court order she filed in which she's asking for alimony+legal fees from me. I'm thinking of switching my lawyer but I feel that's more money down the drain!
As for what I want? Having my family back once and for all would be great but at this point that's unrealistic. In regard to the specific things you mentioned I do have my wish list but I'd rather not post it here in case STBX is reading this.
I definitely need to get out of this reactive mode and even toss some firebombs her way like she does with me. On the surface she's always nice and friendly but then does evil and mean things behind my back. So every action on her part feels like another bullet in my chest. It has to stop.
You're right I *have* lived my life to please her, at least the past 4 years, no question.
Me: 35|WAW: 38|D: 6yo | http://tinyurl.com/2dxx7m6 Feb 2006, left, came back in two weeks Aug 2006, left again Apr 2007, filed for divorce Dec 2007, reunited Mar 2010, moved out, filed again
