Are you in IC, sweetie? If not, I think now would be an awesome time to get going w/ a really good one & begin to figure out who the New You is!
I know this whole thing sucks and I am so sorry for you, but I have to say that maybe a few years down the road, you will look back and go "wow, that was worth it in the end." I know -- a lot easier for an outsider to say, but that's just what I was thinking. Hope you aren't offended.
Take care of YOU and your kids. I hope your family is around and you have a good support system. You WILL get through this & the "only way out is through." Hugs, girlie!
Me: 38 H: 35 S4, S5, S10 Bomb 01/07 Wanted D - nothing would change his mind Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb Piecing 04/07 Deployed for a year 05/07 Still Piecing 2010 M 11 yrs 05/10