WAW still around, DBing starting to work

[gutwrenching]

Lotus - so are you recommending Retrouvaille or not yet? It would probably be a bit a before we could go and might be months to be honest.

MC - looking for advice on how to find a good one. MC scares me a little right now cause things are still very fragile. Had a short but good talk about things last night.

In her words, W is really trying...I asked her what that meant to her...she said emotionally opening up to me, letting me in, the physical aspects of things. I asked if still open to MC together and she said yes. Said there were no promises this was going to work. This all came out after I went distant again...I sensed a pullback. W assured me that although a little overwhelmed with things right now, she was still trying. She again talked about the "tons" of guilt of what she was about to do to the kids and how she "really really didn't like" being treated like an "acquaintance" of mine.