Thanks for the vote of confidence...I don't think I could do that though and certainly would not want to have anyone that H and I know get hold of it and read it...for as much as I did talk with friends and family there is still much they don't know, nor need to ever know...
I understand about the OW...but I still think if your H thought for a moment that he could have you back he would drop her like a hot potato...just so much in what you have said about your relationship tells me that it was the enduring kind of love...not the habit kind...
Something I haven't shared with you...I found out that one of my boyfriends before H, is a crossdresser...he was the best man at our wedding and H's best friend for many years(H refuses to believe it)...we shared a house with him and his first wife and kids...he went out on her more then once and she finally had enough and D'ed him...now she is my SIL...she married my brother...she never knew of crossdressing until many years later the rumours started...neither of us could believe it...but several sources including family confirmed it...
