Thanks for making me laugh, ken. I'm off to change the calender.

Dark won't be hard. The thought of talking to him makes me kind of sick.

I guess I can stop feeling guilty over feeling that tiny bit of relief that he's not here & that my future might actually hold some happiness, can't I?

I'm still going to keep my promise to myself to not slam him to anyone, even to myself. He is part of my children, and they are not going to go through life thinking that I can't stand half of who they are.

I'm the grownup. I can't control what he thinks or says, and I'm going to do my best not to care.

Knowing who I am is more important than knowing who he thinks I am.



eta~Oct. 11th is my father's birthday, whatta a birthday gift, huh?

Last edited by shelbel; 05/11/10 06:53 PM.
formerly known as "shelbel"
Me 40, stbxh 40
DSs 9, 7 & 3
M9, T10
Stbxh is a diagnosed bipolar & an addict. The end.