I have been trying to figure out why I am so bent out of shape about this kissing/touch thing. Other than the obvious 2 year drought!
I know that's one thing I yelled at Dan for last fall when we were going to try again (allegedly! )....because he had been having the A the whole time.
I said, "You know, I have gone 18 months without hearing someone say, You look pretty today, I love you, I can't wait to see you, etc. And 18 months without being hugged, kiseed, greeted, ML to, etc. And here you are acting so tortured and you have gotten that all along, all this time, sometimes from both of us..." I haven't said it since last September but I still think it sometimes.
Maybe that is why I have held out more optimism for people I already know (Golf Guy, old HS boyfriend, R, etc)...because there is already a certain level of comfort there.
I mean sure I could go to Omaha tonight in the right outfit and attitude and find SOME guy to make out with. But I want to have that connection, that partnership feeling. And I don't even mean like a serious relationship feeling. But as simple as both of you laughing at that weird thing you saw driving in the car or teasing each other about a bad shot in golf....
Heck even this morning I was on Fandango and saw the trailer ofr a new movie, Jonah Hex, based on a wester comic/graphic novel series...Artist/Cartoon guy had shown me some sketches he'd done of that character so when I saw the trailer I thought of him. I miss being able to see or hear something and having that person to call or text and say, "Guess what I just saw!"
I want to be SEEN and HEARD by somebody...does that make sense or sound pitiful?
