There. Better. Took a little time to work that out of my system, but not much. These waves of feelings are a pain the butt. But they are not nearly so difficult any longer. I don't feel much movement, but I know it's happening. I'm moving further and further away and moving closer to moving on. I'm done. There is no looking back and wondering "what if" or "if I had..." I realize it wasn't my choice. I realize that now I am making choices and I am, several months later, still happy with that. I don't foresee that changing, although I do realize that there will be times of sadness and wondering if things could have been different. I know the answer to that - yes they could have. Just not by anything that I've done or could have done. And her relationship with the kids is hers. I'll be there for the kids regardless, just like I always have.
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
