W had school board meeting last night. When I got home from work, she told me she had to go into work early, so she would leave the meeting and go straight to work and be home in the morning in time for me to leave. She did txt me at 10:30 to say she was heading to work and she would see me in the morning. I txtd back, okay, see you tomorrow.
When she got home, I had the kids ready for school and she walked them to the bus. When she got back to the house, I was ready to leave. She asked if I was coming home tonight or if I was going to my sister's. I asked what was going on at my sister's house. She said nothing, she was just asking. It took me a minute to realize what she was talking about. The whole me going somewhere on certain nights and her going somewhere on other nights. I just smiled and said, yes, I will be home tonight, told her good-bye, and left for work.
I don't know if this is a time where actions are louder than words, but it should reinforce to her that I have no intention of leaving the house, even for a night. I'm sure I need to tell her what Coach suggested, but I thought my response fit the circumstances. We'll see.
Getting more detached all the time. I was very calm about everything and wasn't really upset at all about her being out all night. I can't say I don't have any reason to doubt that she was at work when she said she was, but I do believe she was. Stupid of me, maybe, but I do know they are short handed at her work and she has alway taken the extra hours when she could.
Learning more and more that I will be okay without her. I still worry about the kids. It seems like she doesn't at all.
