I agree, Puppy. And thank you Rob, this is very inspiring to read. I know where you're coming from and believe me, it has never been my intention not to move on with my life. I am. Honest to God I am. I just needed to be sure.
One difference is that, most of you all have had your WAS home and have seen their reactions, coldness, etc consistently for days. I haven't seen her in months. When she asked me for a chance to be head, I said I wasn't ready. So I didn't know if she was scared, ashamed, angry, etc.
Now I now where her mind is. Fruitopia
Yup!
The specific flavor of fruitopia is up to her but that's where she lives right now. Fruitopia aka fantasyland aka the "fog" aka the magical land where even the air doesn't move it's so perfect.
I hope now you understand the "DB'ing" that I went through to get to where I am right now. I can't say your path will be the same, all I can offer is what happened in my own situation and what turned it around for me.
Yes it's hard, probably the hardest thing you've ever gone through, I'm not naive to what's going on, I'm not insensitive to your situation, I spent a long time living in limbo and for the first several months I wish I had gotten a kick in the a$$ much earlier to save me alot of wasted time and that's what I was doing with you, I'm not here to hurt anyone intentionally and I'd rather stop posting on your specific thread if it's just causing you pain to hear me be so blunt with you, you're going through enough as it is, I'm not ignorant of that.
