I just can't take it anymore

[james217]

James~

How did you mess up? If you can't get in to see your IC or spiritual counseling, do what I did...

I drove around to church after church until I found one where there was a Minister who was willing to see me...

It wasn't at the church I ended up at, however it helped right then and there...

You can choose to allow the rest of your day to be bad or you can pull your boot straps up, put a smile on your face and choose to make the rest of the day the best you can.

(((((Hugs)))))

i have not been N.C. with W. i've gone back to consistently texting and calling again. She does not talk though. maybe she will never talk again.

my I.C. call. we set up appointment for tommorrow. I have I.C. tommorrow. I forgot to ask about antidepressants

I don't think waw will ever call or talk or see me again. I say prayers last night.

I ask waw for forgiveness and patience and for god to make me better so that I will not be a bad person anymore even when I try to be good I mess up I guess.

That's why I can't see the kids or waw.

I leave another voice mail for her to call back.

i mean i leave voice mail for counselor to call me back.

I think I have mess up too much. She do not say a word to me anymore. no text no calls no emails. NOthing.