I also know the expendable thing in my sitch to W is me...
This is your hurdle man. How does that make you feel? This is what comes through in your posts and is why you "fall" evrytime she tries to draw you back in. You are still consumed with this question.
If everyone (her new friends) knew the truth would you feel better?
Why give that power over to someone? All this talk we spend time on about focusing on YOU is because you are the only thing you can control. She has made choices. HER choices. They only hurt her.
If you were further in your journey you would understand this. You would stand in the middle of this pile of crap with NO self doubt because you took a path, a harder path, to push through the pain of her choices and came through the other side self reliant and confident in who YOU are.
I know these are just words right now Jasper becasue you haven't experienced this to know what I am saying.
You haven't fully detached and you won't until you can say you feel no pain at her choices.
Own up to your mistakes and try not to make them again. Look in the mirror and make changes for YOU. Have NO expectations except for YOU to be a better man.
My goal is to some day be the person my dog thinks I am
