She calls tomorrow, so of course, last night I got virtually no sleep. I'm on edge already and it's only just after 5pm. 14 hrs until she calls... and God knows what she's going to say this time.
She's attacked everything. She's got me questioning not just the decision to move over here, but also the last 7 years together. She's told me that "everyone thinks I'm the one for them", comparing me to boy friends she had for 8-12 months. She's made me think that the problem is every little character flaw I have... or that she doesn't want to move... or that she misses her fabled single life.
She's torn apart everything I believed in. And I love her enough to keep talking to her and ask for more.
I'm exhausted today. I've run up literal mountains and worked out and gone to dance classes constantly, and my batteries are near dead... but it's Tuesday.
I need to get out of the house before I drive myself insane, but I'm too tired for another class, and everyone I still know in town is busy tonight.... so what's the answer? I don't know if anyone is online and able to give me an answer before I'd have to head to class... but recommendations are welcome.
It's going to be a long night...
Me: 29 H: 25 T:7yrs M:5yrs
Bomb: 23/04/10
Had no idea anything was wrong. Cheated so she could end it without talking.
