Thanks all-
My family is starting o influence things a bit more...they are growing tired of nothing happening (D)...there are many financial issues that are being neglected by W...on top of that, she lies about it. There are two L's on the side lines waiting- two diff issues- one cannot start w/o the other, so that's the problem.

W goes to IC Wed, and possibly MC on Thurs. It's her first IC w/ a new C- I know first hand of her ability to lie to a C, so I see no real progress in her own IC...

No crystal ball here, but certainly W could use IC to hear what she wants to hear...as that's the pattern.

More will be revealed.

There is an OM3, but they are, you guessed it- "just friends."

Sounds SO familiar- I'm wanting off this ride for good, but have found some ways to just let it amuse me rather than rip my soul from me.

I'm doing well and have really formed my own life again- I'm applying for school again and am trying to seek out some part time work...

Recent script- "I cant go on like this, I need closure; I can't imagine going back; I just don't have those feelings for you anymore; I can't even picture myself starting to date you again; there's just nothing there anymore; too much has happened...blah, blah, blah."

Those things used to gut me, now I just shrug them off...at this point, I would have a harder time feeling the way I should about my W.

I could still muster it b/c I've not once not considered her to be anything but my W- still I don't very much like who she is as of today and the last 8 months.

I also know the expendable thing in my sitch to W is me...she has many hangers on and only W and I know the truth:

R/M was never terrible
we were great friends
we do have much in common
W's business destroyed our time together
effects of OM1/2/3
the lies told
the drugs
etc,etc

W would have to do an about face on all these fronts- and risk her "reputation" w/ her friend and family...she's already done that w/ me and my family, so why not just walk away...

Very sad that she did this the way she did...

Oh- for fun- when W was "sure" she was done a few months back- I was at my lowest, W says-

"I'm moving on- to better things...don't you want me to be happy?"

This as she proceeds to date a drug dealer...lol

none of what they say and half of what you see...

night


DARK