Well here I am now. Moved over from DBD

[Gardener]

g450,

This morning I sat down and watched the DVD I had made. It is basically a copy of and old VHS tape.I now wish I had not watched it. It hurt like hell.

Don't look at old photos, videos, etc. unless you are masochistic and want to be miserable. Photos are the very first visible reminder I got rid of. Gave X the entire 4 boxes and albums of 17 years' worth. Too damn painful.

I guess I am a glutton for punishment but I was looking for evidence of my old wife. The one that loved me etc.

...and, sorry, the old wife who does not exist anymore and has already rewritten history and edited those memories, photographic evidence notwithstanding.

still have about 7 more VHS tapes to convert to DVD so they can be preserved for me and my Son.

Do it to preserve them for your son. Do not look at them. Someday it may be time. You'll know when. But not for quite a while.

I felt like crap for the rest of the day and still do. I just want my FAMILY BACK! But I know I cant have that.

I know. We all do. We know in our brain and logic.
But the heart always lags behind,
Peace to you.

p.s.

Question: Should I go ahead and mail her copy of the DVD to her

No.

or would this still be persueing?

Most definitely. And a waste of time. Worse than a waste of time.

I wanted her to see what our marriage was like and remind her of what she threw away by watching the video.

See rewriting history and editing memories, above.
Forget it. Do not send it. Save it for your son.