One thing I can tell you without a doubt...if I had stayed in my place of self pity and dependence on my H for my feelings of happiness I would not only be miserable but I can pretty much guarantee I would be all alone...I know my H would not have come back to go on the next trip of a lifetime (the guilt trip) and pretty sure my kids would have all jumped ship too!
You really need to take break from all of this and do some soul searching, find a new counselor, go see a doctor and get a FULL physical, and start breaking out of your self absorbed bubble!
